Coming to Terms
I'm still troubled by the events experienced in Nevada. It all feels so surreal, like another nightmare, but unlike my usual terrors, this is just one I haven't woken from yet. My mind's been racing lately, not with the usual pursuits of my research but more with being prepared for the next time I end up on a job from a harbinger. I cannot be as ill prepared as I was this last time.
I've already gotten to work on something that may further my endeavors and help on a dangerous job. It's only a prototype but the mask - what I'm calling a psych-Scope - is already operational. It should allow me to protect myself from contaminants, as well as unexpected stimulants, while also reading mental data from a target with little more than a gaze. Though it does create an unsettling feeling like a low frequency hum that takes you out of body, and not in any way a pleasant out of body experience. Further testing is obviously required. To be completely honest, I couldn't say exactly how this tech works, the design, the implementation it all just came to me, like something I knew would work despite having no reasoning as to why.
Despite the fear and imminent danger, I still find myself compelled to undergo these contracts. The executive, well - "harbinger" that first approached me wasn't wrong about my research becoming stagnant. It's not that I am not invested, if anything my resolve has only been strengthened but I must admit I have been hitting dead ends for some of my most promising formulae. I've never been one for blind optimism, but I know things are moving in the right direction even with these setbacks. I can feel it. There's only a matter of time until I grasp something that produces more results than just that of an everyday sleep aid or supplement.