Jessie (Carrion) Hope's Questionnaire

1. What town or city do you live in? Why do you live there instead of anywhere else? Describe your home.

Link Answered before Jessie (Carrion) Hope's first Contract.

“Well I live in Huston, Texas, close to where I grew up, and it is really just too expensive to move anywhere else. I plan on, in about a year, leaving to go live with my partners in the UK. We have a sort of long distance thing going on, but it sure is a pain. So I just live and work in satan’s armpit for the time being. It’s… not good. The apartment I’m in is cracked and kinda neglected, as to be expected from this location. I try to make it nice though. Make my own paintings and hang them over any particularly grievous eyesore. Even try to brighten the place with a couple plants, that, truth be told, I feel are more trouble caring and cleaning for them than they are worth.”

2. How do you get your money right now? What do you spend it on?

Link Answered after Contract 3, Truck Stop

“Well, I do freelance work on indie studio games. It’s… fun, sometimes, but terrible work, sporadic hours, and inconsistent schedules. Which makes it perfect for me I guess. The freedom to do it how I want, when I want it, as long as the project is done on time. It helps with those inconsistent and often sleepless nights. I spend what I don’t put back towards my well-being on things for my occult studies. A lot of checking old bookstores, and online auctions. Trying to figure out ways to defend people against what goes bump in the night. Tools of the trade. And the tapes. I buy lots and lots of tapes.”

3. Describe your Ambition. What are you striving for? How far would you go to achieve this? Would you kill for it? How close to death would you come for it?

Link Answered after Contract 3, Truck Stop

“When I was young, I had a dream. Standing under a stormy midnight sky, with something massive and absolutely terrifying on the horizon. Again and again these dreams would come, ripe with new faces, new prophecies, new terror. I had foolishly managed to cast it from my mind, and I wasn’t bothered until my tumor got bad enough the doctors knew it was there. I believe that these dreams are the result of something else, standing on the threshold of our world, communicating through my dreams. And I want to touch it. Just reach out and touch the impossibly dark black of its feathers, and feel it’s will clearly without the room for interpretation that dreams bring.

”Am I willing to die for it? Well, it’s only so long before my cancer starts crushing more important parts of my brain than the part that controls sleep and libido. So the question is, do I want to die for a cause, to see beyond our world, or do I want to die slumped over the program for Celeste 2 in my crumbling apartment. I know what I picked.”

4. What was the most defining event of your life (before signing The Contract), and how did it change you?

Link Answered after Contract 3, Truck Stop

“Like I said in previous statements, I have two defining moments: the period of the first dreams and their banishment, and the return of the nightmares. The first opened my eyes, honestly and truly, to the idea of *real* supernatural. Not some vague ESP experiments or magic tricks, but powerful things that went bump in the night.

”The second was much more profound. Instead of only bare hopes that maybe those dreams long ago meant something, I now actually had something tangible to grasp. A power of my own, and the consequences that came with it. Nightmares, secrets, hopes and dreams, all laid bare. It meant I was different. That I had the capacity to change the world.”

5. Name and briefly describe three people in your life. One must be the person you are closest to.

Link Answered after Contract 3, Truck Stop

“Three people? That’s… quite hard. I believe I’ve done all but push them all away.

”Melody Hope: my sister, and while she was undoubtedly my parent’s favorite, she was never unkind to me. Snuck in to talk to me when I was in trouble or ill. She was always… so much better that me, despite being my younger sister, she was smarter, better looking, and fitter than me too. But she always loves me, and makes sure to visit me, even when she doesn’t intend to do so to my parents.”

”Tiffany Bouchard: my therapist, and I guess by your specifications, the one I’m closest to. She… does a lot of asking questions like these. And I usually don’t tell her I have much of anyone besides herself and my sister. I tell her almost everything, from my sleep to my family issues to the things that happened to me as a kid.”

”Eliza Reed: the one part of my life I don’t tell my therapist about. She’s… quite a mystery to me, and actually had spoken to me first while rifling through a bookstore. She’s more extroverted than I, and looking through those thick rimmed glasses, I can see an air of curiosity, a watching presence in her eyes, waiting for something. I will dream of her before she pops out of the woodwork when I’m out and about, but I never remember until I see her watching gaze…”

6. How was your childhood? Who were your parents? What were they like? Did you attend school? If so, did you fit in? If not, why not?

Link Answered after Contract 8, Serpents Hazard

“My parents, well, they’re divorced. My mom ended up with this asshole who never liked me, but at least my stepmother is a kind soul. In fact I left my mom, who had primary custody of  me and my younger sister our whole lives, to go live with my dad and stepmom. Though I did eventually leave them too because of my coming out, I do try my best to keep on good terms with them.”

“My childhood… I won’t lie, I would much rather not relive it. I was so awkward and socially inept, that thinking about my younger years fills me with secondhand embarrassment. Well I guess it would be firsthand embarrassment, but you get my point.”

”As a kid I was a Gifted Child™️. People said I changed since then, which is not true in the way they imply. They simply ignored all of the less useful sides of my mind and personality until it was overwhelming for everyone involved.”

7. Have you ever been in love? With who? What happened? If not, why not?

Link Answered after Contract 8, Serpents Hazard

“I’ve had crushes, I’ve dated, but when I was much younger to the point I really wouldn’t count them. I’m not actively looking though, I’m like the last person who should be trying to get involved in someone else’s love life, much to the annoyance of some of my family. Though if there is someone in my social circle dropping hints, I tend to not notice. It’s a… reoccurring issue, where someone will do everything short of telling me outright, and I’ll just refuse to read into it. Even if somehow I do get the feeling that someone is into me, I rationalize that it’s best to just ignore it. Just in case.”